Sometimes (often) there are things in life we have absolutely no control over that can get us really down. I myself have quite a few of those things going on. Add that to my clinical depression and it could be a recipe for disaster. So, I really have to concentrate on finding ways to feel better, more alive.
With that in mind, I am going to go over all of my past goals and refocus my energy on every one of them this week. Sounds like to much pressure, right? Well I look at it this way…
If I’m eating better, getting more exercise, spending more time with my family, working on being a patient parent, strengthening my relationships, using relaxation techniques, and feeling grateful for all that I have in my life, I am quite sure that I will be feeling pretty good at the end of this week!
Sometimes I have to force the issue however. After all, nobody is perfect, especially me! I get lazy and unmotivated and that’s when I am at risk of failing and falling into a depressive episode. Or I’m just plain tired. Take last night for instance… my back has been hurting pretty bad the past couple of days, and after watching a movie I just wanted to go to bed. My very caring and very persuasive fiance however “forced” me to take a bath and soak for a while. I wasn’t really in the mood, but he wouldn’t take no for an answer. So, I got a book, lit a candle, filled the tub with hot water and bubbles, and soaked for a good half an hour. And it felt soooo good (thank you Tony). Sometimes I have to remind myself to take care of me. It helps!
So, starting today I will not eat anything unhealthy, I will not go a day without getting at least a little exercise, I will try super hard not to yell at the kids, I will practice relaxation techniques every time I am feeling stressed, and I will remind myself daily of all the things I have to be grateful for. I may even start a gratitude journal. Wait, that just gives me something else to do! Oh well, maybe I will anyway…